what am I?
This is me
This is the shape that lest others recognize me as myself
It is my symbol for my Self
A representation. Everything is a description, not my real Self
Everythings a shape, and identifier to let others recognize me as me.

but then, what am i?
Is this me
My true Self? My fake Self?

You are you
there is little difference between how you interpret yourself
and how others interpret you.

Right.
My clothers.. My shoes... my room
These are all parts of what makes up my Self

These things are connected through your consciousness

So, what I think is me, is me.
What I recognize as Self is myself.
But i dont understand my Self
where am I?
what am I?

Nobody can ever understand you

the only one who can take care of you
and understand you is you, yourself.

So, you must take care of yourself.

But I still dont understand my Self!
I dont even know what it is that makes me myself!



...

Its as if im here, but not here at all
its as if im slowly fading out of existence

Why?

because only you are here.

Without others to interact with,
you cannot truly recognize your own image

The image of myself?

Yes. In the act of observing others, you may recognize yourself.

Your image of yourself is restrained by having to observe the barriers
between yourself and others.

And yet, you can not see yourself without the presence of others.

When there are others, I can perceive myself as an individual.
If I am alone, then I will be the same as everything else.
There will be no difference between myself and nothing!

By recognizing the differences between yourself and others,
you establish your identity as yourself.

The very first other person is your mother.

Your mother is a different individual.

Right, I am me and she is she!
But are you really sure that others form my Self?

Its true, Shinji Ikari.

I see, This is another possibility
Another possible world
This current Self is the same way
Its not my true Self
I can be any way I wish to be
I see, I can exist without being an Eva pilot as well!

If you consider that, perhaps this world isnt so bad

Still, even though the reality itself might not be bad,
I could still hate myself.

Its your mind which takes reality and separates it
into whats bad and hateful



Its only the mind which separates reality from truth

your view of reality changes your perception of its nature
it is all, literally, a matter of perspective

there are as many truths as there are people

but theres only one truth that is your truth
thats the one thats formed
by whatever narrow point of view you choose to view it from
its a perception that protects you from the twisted truth

thats true, and one can have a perspective that is far too small

but a person can only see things from the perspective they choose

one must learn to judge all things via the perceived truths
that one receives from others

for example, sunny days make you feel good

rainy days make you feel gloomy

if you are told this is so, that is what you will believe to be so

but you can have fun on a rainy day as well

your truth can be changed simply by the way you accept it
Thats how fragile the truth for a human is.

A person's truth is so simple that most ignore it
to concentrate on what they think are deeper truths.

You, for example, are simply unused to what it is to be liked.

You've never learned how to deal with the fear of how others
feel about you, so you avoid it.